I lost hope in miracles and hope.

I see myself slipping away, going back to the dark side. The deja vu of this sad feeling - same old fucked up feeling during secondary 3, only difference being that the depression during sec 3 is still 1000x worst and i doubt anything can ever bring me down to the bottomless pits again.

The last thing that you can give a man in the past is hope
The best thing that you can give a man now is hope.

Just have a little faith..